I’m in a very confusing place in my life at the moment. I’m trying to do what I think will, ultimately, in the long run be most beneficial for me. But whatever subconscious heading I align my compass to, it seems to change and changes often. I need something, anything to give me a little stability. A little assurance and peace of mind. Waking up and realizing I have no reason to do anything is sad. I literally don’t have a single thing to look forward to on a daily basis. It’s disorienting. I’m like some fucking ghost that just hangs around the house all day, every day, doing nothing. I don’t want to be an island but at times it feels impossible to relate to anyone about what I’m feeling. The last 6 months have been terrible for me. I don’t imagine the next 6 being any different. 

To sum it up: I feel very lonely and sad these days.